Bye, Blog (For Now)

With stress of life starting to flood my days and nights, I have found it very difficult to dedicate a time to writing, and when I did have time to write, I only worried about finding more time to log into my blog, post my writing, find an image to perfectly capture the essence of the piece, and then worry about not having the time to  respond to comments. I have fallen through on promises and challenges because of my schedule and it’s really weighting me down.

First of all, I would like to sincerely thank everyone who has contributed to my blog through a follow, a like, or a comment. I appreciate it way more than you know and I only wish I had more opportunities to interact with all of you. However, I made this blog to inspire me to write; not to pull me away from it. For past several months, the thought of this blog has seemed to block my creativity and place a cloak of stress over my shoulders, making me fear writing anything because I’m too concerned with whether my readers will enjoy it. I have stepped away from social media because of this, and I need to step away from blogging as well.

I have several projects that I am working on, and have been working on for awhile, that also haven’t gotten the attention that I feel they deserve. I am hopeful to have at least one of these pieces complete by the end of the year and to possibly begin blogging once again, but I can’t promise anything.

I simply don’t want to spread myself too thin and miss out on making my dreams a reality. Blogging isn’t my life, but writing is a huge part of it. I don’t want to get the two confused any longer.

My email for this blog will remain the same, so if you ever need or want to contact me for anything, feel free to do so.

Thank you for everything. I hope to see you all soon 🙂

Twisted

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The inconsistency of my thoughts

tangles me with myself.

I am unable to control 

the footsteps of my mind.

As my left leg longs

to step right,

my right leg reaches

to the left,

yet I know

that I should only move forward. 

I trip over myself

and fall more times

than I can stand,

so I remain

twisted

on the path to virtue.

Erupted Galaxy

I ache at the memory
of your unclouded eyes,
as I recall the clear,
crystalline reflection
that vividly portrayed
me–
Only me.
Now, when I catch glimpse,
I see that the galaxy
has erupted
and each and every star
fell into your eyes.
Blinded by the reflections
that now infest your mind,
you can no longer
remember mine.

Life At the Moment

So….
I’m planning to get back into the swing of things- continue with my novel and keep writing poetry. I fell behind a lot these past few months because of college. But, I graduated!! So I’m hoping to have more time to devote to myself and what I enjoy doing.
I just wanted to fill you all in with everything that’s happening with me. I graduated with a bachelor’s degree in education and a minor in communication, as the outstanding graduate (valedictorian of my college), and summa cum laude (3.93 GPA). And within a week of graduating I got a job as a foster care case manager. If you know anything about being a case manger please let me know. I’m kind of clueless as to what I’ll be doing. I’m also buying a house and getting married this year. Everything is just starting for me and I’m so excited,  yet so terrified.
I will be posting more, but it may not be very often, I haven’t written in awhile and I don’t have much to post, but hopefully that’ll change soon!

The Cleanse

Step into the tide
and let the waves crash
over your tarnished being
and drown the demons
that infested
your desiccated soul.
The crowd of emptiness
welcomed the onslaught
and all you could was allow
them to encroach on you.

Find the sea and step
into the tide–
the water will wash
the afflictions away.

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This is the first poem I’ve written in awhile because I haven’t had much time to write or think about things to write. So, it’s not my best but it’s something. I didn’t want to stop writing and forget that I love it so much. Hopefully I’ll be able to get a few more out this week. I hope you enjoy!

What Am I Doing?

So, I have been very, very busy with Student Teaching and I will continue to be until the end of April, then I’m FREE and FINISHED with college! I’m sincerely looking forward to my graduation day because I am severely in the need for the feeling of accomplishment to finally override the feeling of anxiety. While I have been so busy trying to learn how to teach and all, I have also been (slowly) working on both a poetry collection and a novel.
My poetry collection (so far) has about 22 poems included, some have been posted on my site and my novel (so far) has only about 2,200 words. While I AM working on new pieces, I am also trying to do way too many other things with my life. I am not giving up! I just won’t be posting as often as usual, but hopefully you can expect something big, whether it is a novel or a poetry collection to be completed at some point this year. I have a feeling that this year to be huge for me and I really hope my feelings are true! (and that by “huge” my feelings are talking about something great and not hugely terrible, lol)
I may be posting snippets of one of my books, I may post new poetry, I may post some rambles/rants. I don’t know and neither will you, so stick around if you care to find out! 🙂