I’d Like To Introduce You, To Me

About 8 months ago, I created this blog for the sole purpose of curing boredom and giving myself something to focus on rather than my ridiculous stress levels. Since I didn’t have much time to dedicate to writing, I didn’t know if it was something I was going to continue, and I wasn’t sure if anything I wrote was even partially decent, I didn’t tell anyone about my blog.
In order to keep it (in a sense) private, I decided to use a pen name. My real name is Allison. Blair King is a name chosen without really much thought. Blair is (embarrassingly) from Gossip Girl and King is from my favorite author, Stephen King.
I wanted to start using my real first and middle name. I’m going to change the name on here and my social media over to Allison Nicole. With my chapbook accepted by a publisher, I want it to be under my real name.
I strangely feel guilty for hiding my name, but it was what I needed for awhile. But now, I’m ready to claim this fully as my own.

My Blog

I think this blog is both terrible and wonderful for me. It’s like hemlock that tastes like chocolate.

I’m addicted. I have the app on my phone and check it probably every fifteen minutes (okay, maybe more often than that…), I stress myself out over making sure I post something every day, and I literally cannot touch a computer without logging into this site. I can’t focus on my homework, I can’t read my boring textbooks, and I about go crazy when I have no internet access. It’s awful.

But it’s also one of the greatest things to have happened to me. Since making this blog, I have been so much happier. Partly because I finally found something I love to do. Even if I don’t decide to pursue writing and it strictly remains a hobby. I actually have a hobby. I never really have before. Also, partly because of the community on this site. I have discovered so many people who are doing exactly what I’m doing. Just trying to figure everything out. Life, relationships, careers, school, and themselves. It’s opened my eyes to see that I’m not the only one struggling and finding solace through writing and that it’s okay to not have everything figured out.

Life is unpredictable. Last year, I would have laughed in the face of anyone who would have told me that I would create a blog. But today, I’m so ridiculously thankful that I started one.